Its been a while since I have been able to post an update. I have been busy jumping through TFI's ridiculous hoops. I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl July 5,2012 by emergency C-Section. Gabriel became an amazingly awesome big brother to little Miss Jaed. The last several months I have been getting Gabriel over nights. It started out with one night a week then progressed to where he was only in his foster home for one day a week. I now get him Tuesdays at 12 until Saturdays at 5pm. We had court back on September 18,2012 for a motion to terminate my parental rights. The judge deliberated over the decision on whether to grant the motion or to deny the motion. It was a long stressful wait not knowing whether I was going to get my son back for good or not. The good news is the judge denied motion to terminate my parental rights. Now I'm just waiting on TFI to quit taking their dear sweet time to get Gabriel home for good. We go back to court April 30th for a review hearing and he is supposed to be completely back in my custody before then. I have gotten a new CSW worker at TFI because my first one is no longer employed by them. Now my kids and I are paying for her mistakes. 
This is harder on my kids than it is me. I can handle it just fine. The days that Gabriel isn't home Jaed seems lost. She gets used to bubba being there every day and hes gone for a day or two. She doesn't know what to think she just misses bubba. She adores and looks up to Gabe. Gabriel loves being a big brother. He's a huge help. He likes trying to help feed her, give her a bath, dress her, put her to bed among many many other things. He is a great kid. So whats taking so long to get him home for good? The kids are only being traumatized further the longer it takes TFI to quit there petty little games.
Gabriel's birthday is next week (2-27-2013). hard to believe its been there years already. thanks to a certain handful of people I have missed out on so much with my son. He tells me its ok that he will be home soon and he makes my heart melt every time he tells me that. 
I love my babies so much. I could never imagine my life without them.