Its been a while since I have been able to post an update. I have been busy jumping through TFI's ridiculous hoops. I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl July 5,2012 by emergency C-Section. Gabriel became an amazingly awesome big brother to little Miss Jaed. The last several months I have been getting Gabriel over nights. It started out with one night a week then progressed to where he was only in his foster home for one day a week. I now get him Tuesdays at 12 until Saturdays at 5pm. We had court back on September 18,2012 for a motion to terminate my parental rights. The judge deliberated over the decision on whether to grant the motion or to deny the motion. It was a long stressful wait not knowing whether I was going to get my son back for good or not. The good news is the judge denied motion to terminate my parental rights. Now I'm just waiting on TFI to quit taking their dear sweet time to get Gabriel home for good. We go back to court April 30th for a review hearing and he is supposed to be completely back in my custody before then. I have gotten a new CSW worker at TFI because my first one is no longer employed by them. Now my kids and I are paying for her mistakes. 
This is harder on my kids than it is me. I can handle it just fine. The days that Gabriel isn't home Jaed seems lost. She gets used to bubba being there every day and hes gone for a day or two. She doesn't know what to think she just misses bubba. She adores and looks up to Gabe. Gabriel loves being a big brother. He's a huge help. He likes trying to help feed her, give her a bath, dress her, put her to bed among many many other things. He is a great kid. So whats taking so long to get him home for good? The kids are only being traumatized further the longer it takes TFI to quit there petty little games.
Gabriel's birthday is next week (2-27-2013). hard to believe its been there years already. thanks to a certain handful of people I have missed out on so much with my son. He tells me its ok that he will be home soon and he makes my heart melt every time he tells me that. 
I love my babies so much. I could never imagine my life without them.
 
I know its been months since my last post. Its been a busy summer. It went from two hour visits to having my baby boy every weekend. After I had my daughter TFI started doing random ua's again. I have failed 3 UA's due to medicine I have been on due to have a C-Section. My visits went from every weekend to one hour a week. June 10.2012 we had court and I was unable to make it due to having my daughter 5 days prior to court. The judge went ahead and schedule the next court date for September 18,2012 for a motion to continue with termination to my rights. I have done everything they have wanted. My daughter and I are living back in Kansas. I have started going back to therapy like they wanted. And I have a job as they wanted. Still they are wanting to terminate my rights. They have been threatening to take my daughter from me as well. Almost 2 weeks ago DCF/SRS showed up at mine and my grandparents house wanting to take my 4 week old daughter. I have been doing everything they have asked plus more and still have not gotten any closer to getting my son back. I am growing more and more frustrated with each day that passes that I dont have my son home where he belongs.
I dont know what to do any more. But one thing is for sure. I sure In the hell wont give up and I sure in the hell am not backing down. They are messing with the wrong family. They say that their goal is to bring families together. Well that is bullshit. Their goal is to farm children tear families apart and try to make a profit off
 
Sorry its taking so long to update on my visit from Wednesday. 

The visit went good. The two hours flew by. Gabriel got to see both Mommy and Uncle Jake. He seemed happy except when I dropped him back off at daycare. He didn't want mommy to leave without him. Makes my heart break a little more each week. 
 
Its that time of the week again where I get to spend 2 hours with my precious angel Gabriel. I feel like I am getting robbed of my time with him. I will keep posted on the visit
 
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